Just checking in :)
Hey followers, so things have been pretty alright recently. I’ve noticed that when I want to binge late at night I’ll have a piece of fruit like an orange or maybe a chunk of watermelon or a strawberry and that will calm it. I’m ok with that for now, I think it’s wayyyyy better than bingeing so I’ll let that slide for now, and work on it a little later. I’ve been doing well, turned down Rita’s today, because I know it’s a trigger food. I’ve slipped up a bit on the nuts thing but other than that I’ve been doing super well! We’ll see where things go from here <3
So today is friday and my last post was on tuesday I believe, and I’m proud to say I haven’t binged since monday. Eliminating trigger foods has really done it for me! I know that of course I’m far from better, and I admit that I’ll slip up from time to time, but for right now, I am feeling good. I still have a lot of image issues to work out, but I’m taking it one step at a time.
Also, I think I’m going to change my format a little, from a blog to a recovery journal. It’s going to be a lot more text than reblogs, and I’m going to use this as an outlet for things I can’t say anywhere else. I like having a place to say things I can’t tell my friends. That also means I’ll be posting about my setbacks and my failures. I refuse to filter out what I post, and make it look like recovery is all roses and rainbows. I want to tell the unedited truth here.
I really am proud of myself.
Hello there everyone
So again, it’s been a while. Things have been hard recently, but today was good, and that’s all that really matters. I’m not worrying about yesterday, or any day before that; only today. I’ve been figuring out my trigger foods (nuts, cereals, granola bars, crackers) and cutting them out completely (the only nuts I’m allowing are 1 oz. in my oatmeal). Other than that I’m continuing therapy and just trying to push through. There’s a new day on the horizon, and tomorrow will be better.
Stay strong, and never give up on yourself
Well you guys it’s been a rough couple of days
My binges are getting worse and more frequent, and my therapist is on vacation. I told my mom that I think I have binge eating disorder and I’m pretty sure she doesn’t believe me. Neither does my therapist or my school counselor though so what else is new? Last night I binged, twice, but today I was really really good. I’m going to try to see if I can do one week binge free. Seven days can’t be that bad, can it? I’m also trying to rid my house of trigger foods like cereal and granola bars to help prevent binges. This is a hard battle to fight alone, but I guess I’ll do it if I have to, no?
Today’s intake
Breakfast: oatmeal with apples
Lunch: 1 tbsp PB and 1/2 banana in a w.w. pita, 3 oz sugar snap peas, 1 pear
Snack: 6 oz yogurt, 1 orange
Dinner: tofu stir fry with mixed vegetables (zucchini, bell peppers, mushrooms, and sugar snap peas, 3 1/4 oz. tofu) and a baked apple with raspberry jam
Today was another rough day
I stayed home from school because I’m sick and I did quite a bit of eating while I was home. I don’t know why all these habits are coming back and I just don’t know what do to about it.
I thought I was getting better. I want to get better.
Therapy tomorrow, we’ll see :(
Hey everyone
I know I’ve been away for about 10 days, and I’ve got some explaining to do. At first I was just taking a break from working out because of school and stress and AP exams but then this past weekend things changed. I went away for a Jewish thing on Friday and I have a bad history of eating really badly when I go there. I caved right away and I’ve been bingeing all weekend. When I get there it’s like all my hard work just flies out the window and nothing matters anymore. I’ve started to do things again that i haven’t done in so so long and it’s scaring me. I got home today and I’ve been eating like non stop all day. Something I used to do was go into my kitchen after everyone had gone upstairs and eat granola bars and cereal and stuff but I hadn’t done that in weeks….until tonight. I feel horrible :( I have therapy on Tuesday and I’ll talk about that with her but for now I just feel like shit :(
Sorry for the depressing post you guys. I thought I was getting better but I guess I’m still mid-struggle
Intake 4/18/12
Breakfast: 1 egg omelet with spinach and cheese, an apple
Lunch: 1 c. yogurt with 3 strawberries and 1/4 c. granola, a pear, 1/4 c. almonds
Workout: lame run but killed it on the strength
Snack: 1 piece ezikiel toast with PB and 1/2 banana
Dinner: stir fry (chicken, bok choy, green beans, and snap peas) over shirataki noodles (sauce: soy sauce, rice wine vinegar, and ground ginger) and a baked apple
I feel bloated and disgusting tonight :(
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